Right now I am exhausted! My Lilah has been waking at 5:15 in the morning. I am enjoying a weekend in the country with my two girls at my parents. My Lilah is napping and my Sadie is spending time with her grandfather. Me? I am trying to get some writing accomplished. But my body has other plans. Even right now as I type this I fight to keep my eyes from drooping shut. I fight to keep my fingers moving along the page. I fight to keep my thoughts focused on the task at hand. I long to lay my head upon a pillow. I think to myself, "I can close my eyes for just this moment". And I do. I close my eyes as I type. Just for this moment. But I feel that moment lengthening. I feel my fingers slowing, and I feel my eyelids heavier, more difficult to open. Then sleep, sleep. Why don't I just sleep?
I don't sleep because I want to jog, I want to write, I want to read, I want to meditate, I want to do yoga.... I want to, I want to, I want to, I want to.
But, my body is clearly telling me what I need. It is telling me I need rest. I need sleep. I need to use this moment to recharge. This is what I need. I need to care for myself and listen to what I know is true. Simple. Quite simple. My body is telling me what it needs, not what it wants. And in this moment of quiet I was listen, and I will sleep.